Hard Decision

We got some very unexpected news last week. Not really sure why Im suprised with her history but it just really took me off guard. We got a phone call last week that Pate has a new 1/2 sister. Same mother different dad. DHS called to tell us that her bio-mom had a new baby girl (a few months old) that was now in DHS custody and they wanted to see if we would want her. Want her????? Really?? Of course we would "want her" but could we really do it? And, we decided the answer was no. It was a hard decision but we felt it was best for our family right now. With Craig not only doing his baseball job he is now assistant football. Which means hardly any time at home. We are gone all summer with JTs ball team. Craig and I had to think realistically. We already depend a great deal on our family to help out with the kids and it would just be too much to ask of them. I cried all day. I couldnt quit thinking about how great it would be for Pate to have that bond. Now,to think she may never know her breaks my heart. Pate also has 2 older 1/2 sisters that live in FS. Through a weird twist of fate Craig had a student in class a couple of years ago that was actually related to Pate's bio-mom and brought us a picture of her two other sisters that are raised by other family members. That picture may be all that Pate will ever have but its something. I pray that one day Pate can meet them. I am leaving it in God's hands and whats meant to be, will be. I pray that that sweet, innocent baby finds a family that will love her unconditionaly and she isnt just raised in "the system". I cant bare to think other wise.